My honest moment arrived a couple of weeks ago.
My running has really tailed off over the last few months. In march I ran once per week, in April once in the month.
Looking at my stats I can see that I was running an average mile per day up until September last year. Then it just dropped off. Since then my average has been a quarter of that. And I have gained 10lb. It isn’t just about the running though, I also gained 10lb in the preceding 10 months!
I knew that I was gaining weight but it wasn’t bothering me too much. I’d lost some when I was ill, and gaining weight was more than compensated for by feeling better. But a couple of weeks ago I decided that I needed something new to wear. For the last couple of years all my spare time and money has been spent on building the house, but now it was time to go shopping! Yay!
I was thrilled to find lots of lovely summery clothes in my favourite colours. I gathered up an armful and went off to the changing rooms. Oh dear! I looked a mess! I wasn’t upset or anything. It just became apparent to me at that point that I was carrying a lot more weight than I did a year ago. And then I remembered being in this position before. 5 years ago. Before I took up running. Back then trips for shopping were a regular feature in my life- usually resulting in me coming home empty handed because nothing looked right.
And then I remembered how when I started running I didn’t need to shop any more, the clothes I already had looked absolutely fine when I lost the big belly thank you!
So I cut my losses. I didn’t carry on with my shopping trip. I drove home and went for a run!
And the honesty? Well that’s to do with my motivation to run. Although I like to dress it up as ‘health’ really it’s about vanity. I want to look good! I want to be healthy too, but vanity is the trump card that got me out of the door!
when I did go out, it was a lovely summery evening, warm and dry. It triggered memories of happy runs from our old home, off road, fields, woodlands, river. Smell of the countryside, wild flowers, sheep! The place we were renting whilst we had our house built, although rural, didn’t offer much in the way of trails it was all on windy little roads, always the risk of cars. It was never quite the same.
Now I think that here I have an opportunity to rekindle some of the joy and variety of outdoor running. And maybe shift a few pounds…..
I got hubs to take a photograph of me as a ‘before ‘ picture. It isn’t very flattering so I won’t be sharing it! Instead here’s a picture from a nice little woodland path that I found.also, the only ‘before’ picture I’m prepared to share with you, my monthly mileage!